Through it all, she looks at me with the sweetest gaze and I find comfort that I can calm her with my touch. Goodness knows I desperately need to feel as if I make a difference for her. Twice today only I was able to comfort her and I thought my heart would burst. You lose a sense of confidence as a parent when you’ve been in the hospital this long. Whatever confidence you have left is certainly all but gone when you have to be admitted back, twice. And then she looks to you as you comfort her and she falls asleep and you feel like super woman.